okay, i think i'm going to start this weekly review thing. it's quite therapeutic, and that way i dont feel like i have to update every single day, but the blog is still alive. yaaay.

monday, 290310
first day of DJW! was quite excited, pastor jeremy seaward was speaking, and he's spoken at YM before and he was REALLY good, so obviously, i was looking forward to it. and when i said that he was good looking everyone looked at me like "what the, he's a pastor!" but whats wrong with being a pastor and being good looking! and really, he's quite handsome what! anyway, he was good. so HA! made me really excited for the next two days so yaay :)

tuesday, 300310
second day. good again, no need to say. i was quite glad because i could literally feel God stirring, like He's sitting quietly in the back row, or just watching everything from afar and waiting for the right moment to step out. it was quite amazing, and i sorted sensed Him telling me that lives were going to change in those 3 days. and seriously, nothing makes you look forward to a school day more than something like that. so yeah, it was really refreshing having pastor seaward speak. the message he was preaching was really simple, but really needed because i think it kind of helped everyone revisit the basics of God. and he's really funny too, so every actually listened which was fantastic.

other than that, normal school day, normal tuition afterwards.

wednesday, 310310
and then the third day! i don't think i've ever felt as spiritual and revived in church as i did on that day. it was woooonderful~ and when pastor seaward did the "alter call" and just feeling so many people around standing up, woah. God really pulled through for us. loved loved loved the entire thing. God is great (:

"Let the cross draw man to You"

thursday, 010410
THURSDAY! april fools, but nothing very exciting in the pranking area this year, sadly ): maybe next time. but on the other hand, we had the girls from Wesley Girls' High School in Taiwaaan come to MG, and I was one of the hosts so we brought them around, yadda yadda yadda. the tiring part was after school, when we were supposed to take them around Singapore for sight seeing and whatever. We went shopping. At orchard and somerset. Which I think is loooads better than what the tour agencies would usually have them do, because they get to see was real teenagers do in Singapore, where they do it and how they do it :D

tiring of course, i went home to bathe, change, and get some extra cash we needed before meeting them at ION. then everything was kind of rushed and hurried and getting to clarke quay and dinner and getting back to their hotel was SO EXHAUSTING. we must have waited for the 51 bus for over half an hour, all while laoshi was frantically trying to find out where we were cos we were reaaaally late. when we finally reached the hotel, i think the teachers got kinda "whaa...?" at me because i was the only one not in school uniform, eek. scary stuff.

but it was fun and I've never had to use so much chinese in my entire life. hopefully something good comes out of that.

friday, 020410
GOOD FRIDAY! Praise the Lord for dying for our sins on this day. couldn't make it for church service 'cos of all the other grrr stuff that i had to do. tuition, work, errands, blah blah. but the good thing is mummy took us out to watch Clash of the Titans which is preeeeetty good. i didn't realise this before, but Percy Jackson completely ripped the plot off this movie. like, COMPLETELY. it was probbaly intentional but still, some creativity people?

saturday, 030410
tuition in the mooorn~ ugh. then lazed around at home watching movies and eating chips heh. until about 5, and then i was in a mad rush getting ready for THE TEMPEST. rushed over to cafe cartel and met the class (or maybe like, half of it) there for dinner. ate, talked, and got quite pissed off. but nevermind! once we reached the Esplanade and got in our seats i calmed down. the play was surprisingly pretty interesting. didn't fall asleep once, although the beginning was quite hard to understand. Shakespearian english is really gorgeous, but i think modern plays should at least tweak the speech A LITTLE so that young punks like us understand it, no?

sunday, 040410
i woke up in the morning feeling like p diddy and it was raining and the sky was overcast and i was like "mmmmmm~ cozy" haha. it was fantastic, plus it was easter so Praise the Lord. and then church after that. the Easter production was pretty cool haha, and then sermon for awhile and then we have small group. went out for lunch afterwards and to buy the cake for *ahem* and along the way, melody and i convinced the guys to take neoprints! HAHA which was superbly amusing but they turned out quite nice (:


music recommendation!
EVERYONE GO LISTEN TO THE BURNING HOTELS. They are one of the best indie bands from this decade, for me at least. They have a myspace, twitter and yeah they were in Bandslam, but hey, the movie soundtrack is actually really good. I suggest you listen to Stuck In The Middle and Lovely Lovely Lady. wheee~

alright we're almost past another week! sooo, time for an update.

monday - friday, 22-260310
right, so schools been pretty alright. lots of work and lots of project. parachute project has turned out to be quite a blast, and i kinda think the entire level is taking it surprisingly serious, kinda. everyone's been testing our their stuff, dropping it off corridors and rooftops. i think all the other levels and teachers are kinda confused, but it's quite fun watching their amused looks.

we changed our seating arrangement in class! at first i was sitting right at the corner of class at the side, sitting with nicole wong and maria and dionnis! but then, laoshi didn't like the arrangement we did at first, so we all kinda squished towards the front of the class, and i ended up moving next to slim, nat and swong :) yaaay

had chinese and english test on tuesday and thrusday. bleh, chinese was haaaaaard. english was really tricky too. stupid trick questions.

marina barrage on wednesday~ quite cool to be going there again after the first time with SSYSS. went into the galleries and stuff with all the interactive displays and educational exhibits. learnt about conserving water in singapore and water in general. no time for much cam-whoring though, took some alright jump shots. but mrs gan got nice ones on her camera :)

oh and also, birthday week! had a birthday on every single day except monday. so many people getting oooold.

and then ROCS FAIR today. went to slims house yesterday night after choir to celebrate SARAHLOOS BIRTHDAY and to get all the baking done over the sleepover. hahah we stayed up till 2am baking and decorating cupcakes, giving sarahloo our surprise jelly heart cake and talking talking talking talking talking about anything and everything. at one point things got really mushy and yes, i cried.

but yeah, the next morning woke up at 5.45, got ready and headed to school. preparations were pretty hectic, shan and i had to rush back to her house to get like, extra stuff we needed at the last minute. but after that things went pretty well, CUPCAKES WERE A HUGE SUCCESS, fishballs got sold out really fast, and jellyhearts were amaaaazing, the tiramisu was heavenly and everything was goooooood~ i only stayed till about 11.30 but i'm sure everyone raised loads of money at the end of the day! :D

yes! that's about it. i hear my parents gearing up to watch the F1 race in the other room so i shall go join theeem. toodlees~

feel kinda obliged to post after a very hectic week, so i shall breeze past everything as quickly as possible!

saturday, 130310
had to wake up bright and early and rush off to RJC for the stupid RMUN briefing, which was quite bullshit. sorry if there's anyone from there reading, but really. they said it would take 3 hours, it took 45 minutes. NOT INCLUDING THE HALF AN HOUR THEY TOOK TO GET EVERYONE SETTLED. so yes, that pissed me off quite, and I ended up having to go to tuition anyway when I thought I could miss it ): watched ALICE IN WONDERLAND that night and was slightly disappointed. i thought it would be way more epic but oh well. johnny depp is fantastic ♥

sunday, 140310
sec 1 - 3 camp at YM, which i had to miss because of stupid choir camp BAH. but whatever, went to trinity @ paya lebar with jingyun for her youth service. quite cool, really different from wesley though. but the people are good and friendly and nice. so (: i think i spent the rest of the day at home struggling through homework. but it was a week ago and my memory doesn't span that far back.

monday&tuesday, 15/160310
chooooir camp in school. alright i guess, wenglin and christina did a good job of running it (: the games were fantastic and i don't think i've gotten so much toothpaste smeared on me ever. not even at candyland in ym camp. good times and i slept like a baby at night, so it was great. workshop was... interesting haha. and i'm not being sarcastic or anything, i just don't know how else to describe it. pretty alright, but frankly, i would've rather gone for church camp. hmm.

but God had other plans for me, and I'm glad anyway :)

wednesday, 170310
woke up bright and early to go to school again for class deco! shan, swong, slim and trish were there. we ended up building a nest in our classroom, complete with bird and eggs. haha hope the rest of the class likes it. and then SSYS came over to my place for PARACHUTE project. fun fun. our parachute was complete for the most bit. we were too tired by the time we got to the 3rd prototype and just gave up trying to improve it haha. AND THEENN we headed out to orchard to watch DEARJOHN oh my, its great! don't know why the critics are so harsh. the way i see it, if a movie makes me cry that much, its good. haha, we were all sobbing. 'cept sarahwong, but she's a heartless robot. love you guys many many ♥

thursday, 180310
uhhh, i don't think anything remarkable happened on that day. was planning on getting most of my homework done and locking myself away from all distractions. obviously, it didn't work and i ended up spending most of my time on facebook and watching 2 chick flicks. yeah, mega-crying again, but it's good to have a cry once in awhile, no? (:

friday, 190310
LIT SERVICE LEARNING DAY WOOHOO. i finished up the last of my post-its in the morning before the guys came over. and promptly (kinda) at 11 everyone was there and we started getting ready. i changed my top like 4 times because i didn't know what to wear. heh. but i ended up hardly being in any photos because i was the one taking. so OH WELL. ahah, we got two corkboards and filled one entirely with our post its and the other with our project title and slogan. (: really pretty stuff. then we went to JM flowers to buy our 150 stalks of roses. for 40 bucks, which is amazingly affordable. (insert shameless advertising) and then off to orchard! it started raining on our way there so we had to wait it out in the ion food court for the rain to stop. and then we were off. all in all, i think it was pretty successful. met some really nice people, and other not so nice people. but that's life.

learnt a lot, loved a lot and laughed a lot. (: good day.

saturday, 200310
tuition in the morning and then more slacking doing homework till around evening, where mummy took us out for dinner and movie! watched HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON, which is surprisingly a much better movie than i thought it would be. haha, its really cute and endearing and not even very kiddy. mostly. go watch :) yupppppp. oh and i finished Lord of the Flies on that day.

sunday, 210310
todaaaay. YM! at first i was kinda bummed because i kinda thought i would be left out because i didn't go for camp. but aww, faithwalkers i love you guys (: seriously, i think we're the best group ever. (: MUACKS

yup, that's my life. i spent the holidays NOT SHOPPING, slacking at home and i watched 3 movies in a week. not interesting but to quote Sarah Wong "it's all i really have".

and now you know that you control everything
as usual i'm stuck in the middle
and now i'm drowning in myself again
yes i'm drowning in myself again

OKAY haven't blogged in ages, but I kinda want to watch a DVD and read Lord of the Flies.

went to jingyun darling's church today. good people, good worship (: keep smiling babe! you are much loved.

There's not much to talk about really. I hate that. I wish my life were really interesting and I go to fascinating places and have tons or adventures every single day, but sadly, I don't. Really hope that I can one day, school is wearing me down. I'm really really really dreading everything these days, like, I have nothing to look forward to anymore. Even if it IS the holidays, there's choir camp tomorrow, and then class deco + physics project on wednesday, then lit project on thursday and friday. Oh look, there goes my holiday.

I want to stop waking up every morning happy and shining, and then having my heart sink when I remember the crap that I have to do that day. For lack of a better word: it sucks.

What I want:

- iPhone 3GS (yes, i have succumbed)
- iPod classic! (Yeah, I am an apple geek. If i get those two things, my life will officially revolve around apple products.
- Free time
- More music
- Less responsibility

LESS RESPONSIBILITY OH MY GOSH.

Too much stressss. It's things like this that make people jump off buildings and overdose on sleeping pills. But I have God, so everything's alright, I guess.

So the past few days have been a blur of deep sleeps, hazy and sticky afternoons and getting back test results. After that one night of only sleeping two hours and feeling like crap the next morning, I've been sleeping like a baby, yaaay.

And yes, the weather must be trying to deep fry us or something because I'm swimming in my own sweat by 2 o' clock everyday and it is noooot good. It's so humid that I every time I take in a breath, I feel like im inhaling hot water. Oh gosh, it's too hot.

We got back our CT results! Pretty exciting. I am quite happy with my results actually. Even in Chem, which I was sure I would flunk with neon colours. The only bad thing about things like this is I don't know how to react when other people are so grieved because they "failed every other subject". I mean yeah, failing sucks majorly. But then, when people talk about failing, I can't add to the conversation and I just sit there awkwardly listening, not knowing what to do.

And that sucks too.

"Nowadays the future is a prominent topic in our conversations. We just sit around and talk about death and how old we're getting. Cheer up guys, we're only fifteen."

Haha sarahwong, how I love thee. I wish I could blog like you, my blog is not inspiring at all. Then again, Sarah talks like that in real life, and I talk like this in real life (kinda), so maybe it's just me.

And to be honest, I havent really kept to my resolutions, and it kinda feels like shit.

"Just the thought of life is beautiful. The thought of pulse, this invisible movement that propels us forward, the thought that lives can be so interwoven that one can affect the other, the thought that in the weather of the world our life is a passing breeze, but to us, it is all that we really have.

I just feel so alive."

Sarah Wong

I have decided that I really need a change in my life.

When I got home from OldTown/Udders with SYSS today, my dog ran out as I opened the front gate and I had to dash to go grab the leash and run after him. I did eventually catch him and I took him for a walk around the estate. I never realised until then how really peaceful and quiet and homely my estate is. And really, I've been living here for more than 12 years. I've been missing out on so much.

My life has been in a rut for months now, doing the same things day in and day out, nothing exciting, meaningful, special. That's really not how I want to live. So I've decided I need to cut back on distractions and start doing more good with my life.

From now on, I will only go on MSN/Facebook/Tumblr/Twitter/etc every alternate day.

I will try to run as much as possible around the estate.

I will read tons and tons of meaningful books.

I will start writing again. I will keep my study notes updated.

I will hand in all homework on time.

I will give more of my time to choir and church.

I will read the Bible, cover to cover.

I will tell people how much I really appreciate them.

I will cut back on vulgarities.

I will get at least 7 hours of sleep every night.

I will take more photos of everything.

I will discover something new everyday.

I will try and stick to all of this for as long as I possibly can.

Anyone reading this, remind me everyday how my life needs to be something more. I love you all (: